Add on, there are loads of homework for me to do, scripts to be writen and memorised, pengawas reports to be writen, and piano to practise! Man...it's really too much. Haizzzz...
I don't even know when I can finish all that homework. Tomorrow I've got the drama practise with Fatin, Tarmizi, Adam and Ammar which makes 5 out of 7. The other 2 live to far away so I really really hope they will hv their lines memorised and we'll somehow make it through Monday's presentation without any practice with them. It sounds crazy and impossible to me, but who knows?
Nobody can make you feel any worse than your own mom. Haih...
Seriously I'm really stressed...keep thinking of things I'm not supposed to be thinking about. Have you ever seen some wild students just take a penknife or anything sharp to cut their wrist when feeling angry? Well, that was definately on my mind yesterday. It's kinda tempting feeling because it like drags all your problems into your bleeding wrist but, what a pity I didn't get to try because somehow, some small small part of me was very very scared of the pain. haizzzzz...don't pay any attention to this post. It's just rubbish. Don't worry, I'm thinking rationally now. ;)
Saidatul Fazdilla (2T) I really don't wanna pollute my blog with your name and your problems but you are so damn freaking annoying me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And somemore it's over a small thing. Y0u really tested my patience that day. If what you did make me spill my tears, you're gonna regret it. I will not let that pass so easily. How was your day reading up on the stage? You're a pure coward. Thats all. Behind, you scold me eventhough you did a big kesalahan disiplin and act like you're so powerful. Hell, I HATE YOU!!! How did you like being 'talked to' with Erma Yana or Cikgu Adibah? The feeling must have been so nice rite ;) And add Alvin too. And after all that, you still dare to threaten me? What are you going to do to me? Gosh, Chee Wing was right. This world really is so evil and cold.
But in hard times, you know who's your real friends. Those who stick by you and help you. I know who mine are. <3
Right now, I can't think of anything that will make me happy. Yea, my Science got 98%, so what? My Maths really improved, so what? My Sejarah is higher than Naim, so what? Argh...i dunno what to think now. The feeling of not having any feeling is nice to keep so maybe I'll be that way for a while. Gosh, I seriously am so not fun to be around this few days, just bringing sadness to other people. Sorry la.
All that extra tears is useless. I'm not supposed to shed a tear for anyone that is not important, but that is just what I have been doing all week. Man, this is hard.
