Feelings.

I envy those people with average results.
Because when they make an improvement, eventhough its just a little bit, people will congratulate them or give them words of praise. People will appreciate that they're working to get better results.

I'm not to brag here, just saying the truth. As the top scorer ever since primary school, getting first place never was anything special. No matter what, people just expected it. Don't care how tough or how easy, or how big or small the exam was, a string of A's is always expected. Okay, I never thought I would be the victim in those cases where even an A- is considered bad and a shame.

They got second, they got third, people gave them what they wanted. I don't think I'm even qualified to speak about it. Yeah, FINE. I accept. But its getting tiring always hearing that I could have done better.

Okay la, fine. Maybe its true that one can never be good enough.

At least, just a little pengiktirafan? Why other people could be so proud, but not you? Haha. Maybe its just your psychological way of making me work harder. Hah, even so people need to be rewarded for their hard work, ain't? Or maybe the results is already considered as a reward? Over my own hard work. Pfft.

Please, don't sound  all annoyed and all when I ask you stuff,

its heartbreaking.

But you don't know, do you?

Because as daddy's little girl I could never let you see that.